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13 going on 14 [03071991]
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
What is wrong with you? Why do you keep treating me like this? Why do you keep pushing the blame to me? Why is everything my fault? I always tried to please you but you never seem to appreciate what I have done for you. You never understand my feelings. Stop being angry with me for minor things like not telling you that I'm online or I can't go out with you. I told you that my mum didn't let me go out and you're still angry with me when I turn down the offer. It's not my fault right? It's not as if I don't want to go out. It's just that my mum doesn't let me. Can't you understand that? And you keep on saying that I always want things my way. Since when I always want things my way?! It's YOU! YOU'RE the one who want things YOUR way. I'm so sick and tired of all this. Stop treating me like shit. Who are you to treat me like this huh? Friends don't treat each other this way. You always hurt my feelings. I can't stand it. Even though it's not my fault, I have to apologise. I WANT THIS SHIT TO END. I MEAN IT. If you're my friend, you'll never treat me like this. Think about it man...
spilt the ink @ 4:43 PM
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
Today we had cross-country at MacRitchie Reservoir. It was ok. Ran with Nicole and Elyana. I kept tripping over the rocks and trees' roots. Luckily it only rained AFTER everyone has finished running.
Since we ended early, Deborah had no choice but to take bus or taxi home cause her mum was unable to fetch her. After much thinking, she decided to take taxi home and I had to help her flag a taxi. I had to miss 2 buses just for her sake. Poor me. Bad Deborah. It was damn difficult to get a taxi. After a long time, she finally managed to get a taxi. Unfortunately for me, I had to take the same bus as her. She talked damn loud in the bus. For god's sake, who wants to hear your stupid conversation. I was damn irritated by her.
Reached home at about 11am i guess. Cant remember. Slept till 2pm. I'm damn hungry now cause I onli ate A burger. Keyword: A.
Whee! It's raining now.
*sigh* That Japster so long never go online cause computer got virus.
I really hope we get shortlisted for Buzz At Canteen. Tomorrow, we'll get to know the results. I am going to be so damn disappointed and fustrated if we did not make it. We practiced so hard until me and the other Breakers got bruises all over our legs.
Life has been bad recently. Very bad. This week I've cried so many times. Oh wells...
Next Saturday, I'm going to China and I still havn't pack my stuffs. Well, at least I'm not the only one. Jaime and I planned to call each other while packing our stuffs so we can discuss what to bring and what not to bring. Mum bought me new clothes last Saturday for the trip. So happy! I think I'll be damn busy during the June hols.
I'm going to watch Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith next Monday. Can't wait. Heard it was superb and much darker than the previous episodes. Gosh, I think I'll be damn broke after that Monday. Anyone cares to donate me some money? =p
It's no point trying so hard when you get nothing in the end.
It's ironic but slashing somehow cures the pain.
*[sh]e's [lo[st i]ns]i[de*
spilt the ink @ 4:58 PM
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Saturday, April 30, 2005
Oh man! The weather is freaking hot. I wish I have aircon. *sigh* Trying to do my homework now but I just can't concentrate. Not sure why. Maybe it's because of the weather! Basically, today is such a boring day. Nothing much to blog about. I wanna go out! Unfortunately, my mum wouldn't let me as exams are coming. Argh! Two more weeks. Can't wait for exams to be over. Wouldn't it be great if there's no such thing as exams? *sigh*
I still havn't buy Geraldine's birthday present yet and her birthday is like next Friday... I still need to buy Jannah's birthday present. Her birthday is just after Geraldine's. Mother's Day is coming up too... This month I need to buy so many things! By the time I spent money on presents, I wouldn't have enough money to splurge on for myself. It's always that case. I always don't have enough money to buy things for myself. Oh wells...
Currently listening to the song Collide by Howie Day. It's such a nice song. Ok, that was random.
It looks like Hanis and I are friends again. She has been talking to me ever since this week. I wonder what makes her become so friendly towards me... Hmmm... At first I was very shock when she first started to talk to me. I was like, "Er... Is she talking to me?!" Even Deborah and Elyana were shock. Elyana said we two (Hanis and I) were weird people. :/ Don't really understand what she means. However, Deborah says it's a good thing that Hanis has started to talk to me. Well, is it?
i don't think i would be able to love you like i used to...
it's just too difficult for me...
*[sh]e's [lo[st i]ns]i[de*
spilt the ink @ 4:08 PM
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Sunday, April 24, 2005
Sick. Sick. Sickkk. I have been not feeling well since Thursday afternoon and today is the worst. Had high fever first thing in the morning. I won't be going to school tomorrow. *sigh* Staying at home for the whole day is going to be so boring.
By the way, Oleander got 1st for cheerleading and is the champion house! Whee!~ Finally after 10 years, ole managed to be the champion house and... 2/M is the champion class! Yay! To be frank, I didn't expect ole will get 1st for cheerleading.
Arini was being sooo "melebih" during her cheerleading. EEEEE!!! So exaggerating and sickening. Even my seniors say so! She makes me wanna puke. Before the cheerleading starts, she was like jumping up and down and kept punching her fist in the air. She was the only one doing that. SO EXTRA. I HATE ARINI. I hope she reads this.
Let's not talk about that bitch anymore.
After Sports Day, Nadia, Farrr and I went to Plaza Singapura and watched Infection. That movie doesn't make a lot of sense and it is kinda complicating.
Anyways, Meet the Parents session was yesterday. I can't believe Ms Thang said that I'm very quiet and reserved. Me?! Quiet and reserved?! RIGHT. Joke of the century.
This shit is bananas.
*[sh]e's [lo[st i]ns]i[de*
spilt the ink @ 6:32 PM
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
Why? Why? Why?! Of all the people, WHY must it be her? Seriously, what's so great abt her? And excuse me, did you just say that she's PRETTY?! *rushes to the toilet and pukes* She is FUGLY. PLAIN FUGLY. Get it? I am not saying that I'm goddamn pretty but seriously just look at her carefully. And for god's sake! She's older than you! Yes! Older!!!! Get it? OLDERRR!!! I just don't understand what you see in her.
She is a big fat liar. She always thinks so highly of herself. She is sickenning. She is a bitch. And not to forget this: She always try to steal things from me. (not literally) So, of course I HATE HER! Don't you fucking get it?!
You also said that she respects her parents a lot. What? You think she's the only one who respects her parents? You think I don't respect my parents? If that's what you think, then screw you! You can jolly well live in a coconut shell.
And there you go, apologise again. I doubt you know what's the meaning of sorry. Sorry means you regret for what you've done and you will never do it again. Get that in your thick skull! Argh! Because of you, I have to go through a hell lot of fucking things. Why can't you just be a bit more tactful? No. Not a bit more. A LOT MORE.
You have hurt me too many times. I don't think there's a need to apologise. Well, just remember this: What goes around, comes around.
*[sh]e's [lo[st i]ns]i[de*
spilt the ink @ 9:15 PM
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Wow! It's been a long time since I blogged. Well, I've been very busy lately. So much to do, so lil' time. This year I'm trying not to slack but it's like sooooo difficult for me. It's like you keep saying later later but it never comes.
A lot of interesting stuffs have been happening in my life this year. Not only it has become more interesting than last year but also more complicating! I guess the complicating part of my life makes it interesting eh? And some people say I've changed. Well, sometimes people change when something happens to them right? Whatever it is, I'm sure I've change for the better.
I've been wanting to buy so many storybooks but am forced to wait till the money comes. Anyways, I just bought a new book today. I've been wanting it since March. The title: Snakes & Earrings. Trumpeted on its cover as "the prize-winning cult classic", this novel revolves around a teenage girl, Lui, who loves tattoos and body piercings. However, its painstaking, clinical descriptions of tongue-piercings and unconventional sex is not for the squeamish. Overall, I loveee the book. I'm planning to buy Memories of a Geisha and Out next.
I think I better study for my hmt test now. I really don't wish to fail again. It's so demoralizing to fail hmt- a subject once I loved.
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spilt the ink @ 5:44 PM
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Friday, November 05, 2004
I am so bored.
I'm doing some research on some drama stuff. Tomorrow is the 1st meeting. We're going to Shaza's house. It's gonna be kinda scary cause I'm the only sec 1. oh wells...
I cleaned my room yesterday and the day before. Got rid of all the rubbish in my drawers but it didn't seem to make any difference at the end of the day.
Oh gawd, my eyes are so tired.
Just talked to Elyana on the phone. She's on her way to City Hall to meet her dad. And she reminded me of something which just made me wanna cry... =( i'm gonna miss my da jie. she is such a gd sister.
oh man... still need to write farewell letters to the sec 4 tennis seniors. we don't even know most of their names! And I doubt they know us. The farewell party is probably on 10th Dec at Bayshore Park, one of the sec 3 senior's condo. i don't even know how to get there. The theme is Sparkly Sixteen. So we're suppose to wear something sparkly like glittery hairclips or something.... well whatever it is, I hope I'm gonna enjoy myself there cause I have the feeling that I'm not....
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spilt the ink @ 3:43 PM
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WELCOME.
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
